Know That I’ll Be Near
Throughout all of last year, I found myself in a place of really needing to be reminded of God’s love. I’d begun to forget His love in its entirety for me, you, and everyone else.
Here, I’ll explain a little more.
I wasn’t questioning God’s existence or if His love were real (because I know both are true). It’s just that due to circumstances in our life at the time and the difficult season Ben and I were immersed in, I felt like all around me I was watching God’s love being taken in vain. Not realizing it, I began to think, “I’m not going to accept God’s love in vain. I’ll make sure I work for it.” Y’all, that’s totally not how God works. But after days and days of the way I was feeling, I subconsciously made that decision—that God loves me depending on what I do.
I spent almost an entire year forgetting the true love of God. It wasn’t until the end of the year that I had a conversation with Ben realizing my current situation. Then came the constant prayer and asking God to remind me of who He is and His love for me and all people. One day in January, Oliver had woken up from his nap crying. I headed up the stairs, reached in to pick him up, and started to sing a song that is on an album that he loves (For Our Children EP by The Brilliance—it’s the most precious music written by a band to their children and Oliver’s in love with it. You should check them out!). I started to sing, “And as you sleep my dear, know that I’ll be near…” and instantly everything inside me broke. Through my tears of joy I said, “Ollie! That’s what God says to me! He feels about me and all other people the way I feel about you!”
It was one of the sweetest, most real moments I’ve ever had. I love Oliver with a precious love that only moms can relate to. His protection, well-being, and needs are always on my mind. Every giggle, coo, and even every cough is just the best thing to me. He has caught my attention and will keep it forever.
THAT is how God feels for us! He is a gracious God, filled with love for people who really are so undeserving. He loves us and that can never change. As much as I love Oliver, God loves us with a love that is so much more intense and passionate. So much love that He sent His only son, Jesus, to die for the sins and wrongdoing of all humanity (yours and mine) so that our sin would no longer separate us from God. Only when we recognize our sinfulness, acknowledge and believe what Christ did on the cross, and give our lives over to His leading can we step into a life filled with worth and love in God.
As you scroll through this today—wherever you are and whoever you are, no matter your situation in life—know that God loves you. Your protection, well-being, and needs are always on His mind. Every giggle, tear, and breath doesn’t go unnoticed by Him. You have caught God’s attention and will keep it forever. I encourage you to ask Him to show you how He loves you and I promise He will answer you.
If you’re needing to be reminded of God’s love today, check out the book of Psalms chapter 139 in the Bible. Absolutely incredible. And as always, I’d love to hear your thoughts 🙂
“How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered!”